There is a little crack in me
Somewhere on the surface
Or deep inside of me,
But I just know it is there.
It doesn’t show itself
nor does it hurt me anywhere
but it seeps my sanity
and makes me look pale.
But it is unlike any other crack
‘coz it makes me feel heavy
And woozy and out of track
And leaves my brain totally empty.
I don’t know how to seal it
Bandage it or cement it
‘coz I cant even find it
Trace it or even have a hunch about it.
It leaves me last in every race
Be it in sport or any other case
Intellectually it leaves me a vegetable
And makes me moronically able.
It makes me the laughing stock
Of people around me and my peers
Making me nothing worth a talk
Pushes my body and my soul to tears.
This crack is a bane on me
Forcing artificial smiles on my face
When I would rather be
Left alone and happy to go at my own pace.
The smile is totally wiped off me
The laughter stolen away
Now I feel like a dead tree
All dried up and rotting away.
What a bad thing this crack is
I wonder how I got it
It must have been a sneeze
Or a fight or something bad I did.
Oh this crack is now going wild
I cant even face many people
For fear of being compared to a child
My self esteem plummets on the double.
But what can I do to this crack in me
That’s flipped me left to right
Well there’s really not much left to do
But hold strong and put up a fight.